Tomorrow I go in for some testing that has me scared to death. I have only told two or three people about it and just the thought of it has started a panic attack.
How do you face your own mortality? What do you think about? Does it really change you?
I am having such a hard time with these tests coming up, that I am finding it hard to pray. I know that God is in control and all that Christian-ese talk; but, down in the dirt of life does it help?
When we tell someone that is facing a difficult situation these sayings or Scriptures that have been used over and over again that they begin to lose their effectiveness, do they help? Can the person in the midst of the trouble really take to heart what is being said and let it help them?
Sometimes I wonder. Sometimes I say those things because it makes me feel better to be able to say something to them. Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut and hug them.