School. It is the bane of my existence lately. Not because I don't like it anymore, but because it is pointing out my shortcomings and faults in blaring reality.
I don't like that.
I don't really want to post about it yet. I think I want all of us to get through it first and then I'll post. For now let's just say that homeschooling is painful.
For them and for me.
Today marked the re-instating of the schedule. Again. We have done the schedule off and on and we always do better when we follow it. So, why would I not? Your guess is as good as mine. It completely takes the stress off of me because the schedule tells them to do something not me. It also makes us stay on track.
Believe me, we need all the help we can get.
So, I pulled out my planner and filled it in after checking their planners for the second time in two days. Yup, that's what I said. There were some shall we say creative entries in them that needed cleared up and more follow up was required from mom. Yippee.
As the day wore on, I checked off their assignments in my planner and could see the progress which helped me with that feeling of failure that I have been battling. We have also set up check points on Wednesdays and Fridays to check their planners and their books to be sure work is getting done and done well.
The 'we' I am talking about is Steven and I. He is jumping on board in a more visible way to help me out and I appreciate it so very much.
The last few weeks are what have me longing for the yellow bus that passes by here twice a day. I know that that is not what God has called us to and that might just make it more difficult. I feel so inadequate and yet He is expecting me to do this.
He gave me my children with the personalities they have to refine both of us, not just them. I'm not so sure I like that sometimes!
"His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness." 2 Peter 1:3
I need to remember this and recite it often. Like tomorrow when we don't get Free School because the girls are too behind in school work and don't get the privilege.
But today was a good day and I am planning on tomorrow being one as well.